Friday, February 13, 2015

Letting Speed Bumps Turn Into Road Blocks

I have 4 young kids.

My husband works a lot.

I didn't get one peaceful moment to myself.

The house is a wreck.

I don't have time.

I'm too tired.

I'm not a morning person.

The spin class is way too early.

I deserve to relax.

I deserve a "treat."

I love my unhealthy food too much.

I'm addicted to sugar.

All of the above are excuses for why I am not progressing in my weight loss journey and, to be honest, gained some weight back. All very true, but they aren't the actual reasons for me being over weight, still.

I am the reason, me. I don't make time to workout during my day. I don't exhibit self control mainly when the bad foods are in the house - which I helped put there to begin with. I make excuses to make myself feel better about not doing the things I should to better my health and lose the excess weight.

For the past few months I've been in this uphill battle with myself. I fell off the wagon and then every few weeks I try to pull myself back on and I cling for dear life for about a week or two. Then I'm right back off and stay that way for a few weeks and try again. And I am just so sick of this cycle. To me it's worse than just staying off for an extended length of time because I get so down on myself every time I "quit." 

I have also been slinging some really mean names around my subconscious about myself. Some evenings my head just isn't a pretty place to be. And, well, that just is not cool.

Something I have been contemplating on and off since my first fall off was shutting down my blog. I felt like a failure and I felt like what business do I have writing this blog when I can't get my weight off and am gaining a bit of weight back to boot. The thing that kept stopping me was the fact that I would never get back to it. If I had shut down the blog, I'd go the next 6-12 months not even giving healthy living a second thought. And another reoccurring thought was that my blog is Stuck in My Weighs, which is really me being stuck in my ways keeping me over weight. I have managed to get myself out of the sedentary life I was living for quite awhile (probably 5-6 years). But, I am still stuck in my ways when it comes to my food.

I have tried without success to start eating completely healthy, because unfortunately I have a horrible horrible horrible relationship with food. Binge eating, sugar addicted, emotional eating, boredom eating, you name it I have it. It seems every time I have tried (3 that are most recent and that I can remember) I fail very quickly and for the next week I eat worse than ever.

And I hate nights like tonight that I make eating clean and being active sound so damn easy that I can't believe I haven't got it down pat by now. I have nights like these semi frequently. But then, the next day I'm all but ripping my cabinets off the hinges using my mouth as a vacuum sucking black hole for all the yummy food in my house. I am going to work really hard to make sure that doesn't happen tomorrow.

Firstly, expect to start seeing more posts. I hope to at least post once or twice a week. Posting a couple times and planning posts should help to keep my mind on a healthy lifestyle.

Secondly, starting Monday, I will be starting a 100% clean eating diet for at least 4 weeks before I have anything that I am cutting out. I definitely believe in treats for balance, but I can't trust myself with food right now. I am so sick of my eating habits holding me back so this is definitely going to be my main priority.

Thanks for reading!


Wednesday, December 31, 2014

2015 My Best Year Yet

I've been thinking a lot about my New Years resolutions for 2015 and reflecting on 2014. I didn't accomplish the resolutions I laid out for myself last year, but I had a great year. My problem is I get lots of big grand ideas, and in theory they are amazing and would get me very fit and healthy. But, I set so many goals all I'm really doing is setting myself up for failure. I try to tackle way too many things at once without a full out plan of attack. With all that being said, here are my 2015 resolutions:

Be Healthy

Be Happy

Both very simple - if you choose to make it so. I have been working out all the details of my game plan for the last week or so. So here we go.

Be Healthy...
          I'm breaking up with my scale.
          Take weekly pictures to capture my visible changes.
          Healthy eating and give it 100%.
          Create a workout plan and stick with it the best I can.
          Keep track of my food with MyFitnessPal.

Be Happy...
          Stress less, especially over being healthy.
          Keep a notebook with happy moments.
          Do more fun activities as a family.
          Become a yogi (yoga person)
          Read more.

One may see all these and think those are all goals. And they may be, but I'm not going to stress out over doing all these things every day. It's not going to be the end of the world if I don't get in a workout or I eat something that isn't healthy. I am so excited to get this new year going!

If you are thinking about setting a New Years resolution or not check out this video from one of my favorite fitness people Coach Caleb Thomas:

Feel free to comment below with your resolutions or a link to your resolutions.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Week Three Sugar Detox Complete

Week 3 Kick the Processed Sweets

I definitely considered the first two weeks a giant success. But, then ugh week 3 really rough!! Ok, so first, mentally I'm like I can have sweet teas again just in moderation now that week 2 is over. That's just my first problem to start out week 3. Pop tarts are a big issue with me. If they are in the house I'll just eat them mid day as a snack - I'm not even hungry when I eat them, I just want a sweet snack. So those were a biggie. But then, day 2 I'm like my issue is with pop tarts, I can have this (insert random treat).

So, this third week was a gigantic failure for me.

Here was my notes for week 2 from the original Sugar Detox Post:

Week 3 Kick the Processed Sweets
For me, this is things like cookies, rice crispy treats, and pop tarts.
- Well, one don't buy it! Ugh this is such a tough thing for me to follow. I always have the intent not to buy them when we leave for the store. But, if my husband doesn't want it, my kids will. Every now and then I have been successful - but then we just end up eating out a bunch that week.
- Don't go down the bad food isles. I've tried this one a few times too. But, either the bad stuff is on the end of the isles or my husband leaves and comes back with undesirables (in my healthy mind frame).
- Make a list and check it twice. I am terrible at making grocery lists and sticking to it.

-I bought the stuff! I just let myself use the excuse my family will want it. Which, well, is just sh*t. But, even though they do consume some of the treats, my no self control ass ends up eating the majority.
- I went down some bad isles. Part of my problem was I wanted to get some things for a recipe for Thanksgiving and one of the things - Oreos - I was like better get two because my daughter is going to want to eat them.
- I made a list and I didn't stick to it.

I think for me. I am going to have to break this down even farther to specific items a week. And work on keeping them eliminated. Because really, cutting something out for a week isn't going to do me any good.

One Victory

At the start, my main issue was with candy. I have successfully managed to cut candy and keep it out for 3 weeks. So that is definitely great win for me.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Week Two Sugar Detox Complete

Week 2 Kick Sugary Drinks

I was worried about this week the most in the beginning, even though now I am starting to feel just as worried for week 3. I would say the last month or so, I was drinking at least 64 ounces of sweet tea a day and it was mainly McDonald's large sweet tea. I would literally drive across town just to go through the drive-thru for a sweet tea when going to pick my son up from school. If I was out taking my kids to doctor appointments, I'd grab one on the way there and on the way back. I really felt like giving up pop, I had just switched one addiction for another. It was like caffeine headaches all over again the longer I went in my day without one.

Here was my notes for week 2 from the original Sugar Detox Post:

Week 2 Kick the Sugary Drinks
For me this is Pop and Sweet Tea. On a regular day when it's not the two weeks surrounding Halloween (before and after), I am the classic "drink your calories" type. I had quit drinking pop for about 3 months then I started again and now I am right back to caffeine headaches.

I think I can really tell this is the week I was having the most mental struggle with because I didn't give tips like I did for weeks 1 and 3. Oops!!! So I'll share some now

Tips for making it through week 2:
- Drink lots and lots of water! PS you should be doing this anyway.
- Add fruit to your water. I have heard this a lot, that some people just can't do water because there is no flavor (because they are used to those sugar filled sodas). I love doing lemon, I haven't don't much else. Once I had blueberries and raspberry water at a party. It tasted different, but not bad - it was room temp so I think that had an effect on me too because I am not much for room temp drinks.
- Try doing green or black tea. I got black tea a few weeks ago and I actually really liked it (I had never had black tea before. Also green tea is supposed to be so health beneficial for you! I tried it a long time ago and really didn't like it because I was so used to sweet (Nestle) tea, which I grew up on.
- Try getting unsweetened and sweeting it yourself. That way you know exactly how much is going in - and how much you don't want going in which is the issue with my daily McDonald's sweet teas.

I hope you find these tips helpful and if you have any of your own tips feel free to comment below.

And here are one of those sugar revealed things I'm sure you have seen around online:

P.S. according to a CNN report you should only be consuming around 25g a day and not all 3 of the sodas are over twice that.

Week One Sugar Detox Complete

Week 1 Kick the Candy
I realized I didn't post here last week for the completion of week 1 of Post Halloween Sugar Detox but I shared this update on Facebook last Sunday:

          "Update on my sugar detox week one kicking candy - I made it through the week and their is still candy in this house. I had one snack size Hershey's earlier in the week. That's it. Today I even found unopened candy in my kids room (snickers) and I threw them out!!!  #win #sugardetox #sugaraddict #cleaneating"

Even taking into consideration of the one snack sized Hershey's early on in the week, I still consider week 1 a huge success!
          You don't have to be perfect, you just need to try your best!
It really isn't about being perfect and honestly I expected to report much worse - but I'm so glad I didn't have too. It's so important to set small attainable goals. And one or two small slip ups doesn't make the entire thing a wash. And trust me, in the past that has been my mind frame. If I slipped up, I would just say whelp that's over with and:

If you didn't check out the original sugar detox post here were tips for surviving week 1: (the red tells what I did during the week)

Week 1 Kick the Candy
- Inventory.  Take stock of you kids candy, if there are things you know they won't eat trash it. I trashed candy multiple times.
- Write a "letter" of intent. You intend not to eat one more piece of candy and post it on your fridge. I didn't post a note anywhere, but I took my blog post as my letter of intent (and my husband did read it).
- Work for it. Figure out a hard workout command you will have to do if you eat another, right then and there - before you eat it! I had already indulged from Halloween through the weekend, and those were not going to be worked for. Everyone should indulge some every now and then. But, for me, the time had come that it had gone overboard. My plan was to do 100 jumping jacks for every snack size I ate. And I actually ended up doing 100 jj several times throughout my day after eating it, just because it made me feel good :)

Thanks for following along on my sugar detox!

Monday, November 3, 2014

Post Halloween Sugar Detox

If you are like me - an overeating sugar addict, you probably also over did it on the Halloween candy. And if you are super like me, you are racked with guilt over all you ate.

Do not get me wrong here. A few treats every now and then totally fine. But, my indulging always seems to go way over the limit. I definitely consider myself a sugar addict.

And to add fuel to my bad eating fire, I am not good with drastic changes to my diet. I go into a wild mood swing and completely wreck it the rest of the day, and for the next few days as well.

One pile of several I made this weekend:

 Post Halloween Sugar Detox
Week 1 Kick the Candy

- Inventory.  Take stock of you kids candy, if there are things you know they won't eat trash it.
- Write a "letter" of intent. You intend not to eat one more piece of candy and post it on your fridge.
- Work for it. Figure out a hard workout command you will have to do if you eat another, right then and there - before you eat it!!

Week 2 Kick the Sugary Drinks

For me this is Pop and Sweet Tea. On a regular day when it's not the two weeks surrounding Halloween (before and after), I am the classic "drink your calories" type. I had quit drinking pop for about 3 months then I started again and now I am right back to caffeine headaches.

Week 3 Kick the Processed Sweets

For me, this is things like cookies, rice crispy treats, and pop tarts.
- Well, one don't buy it! Ugh this is such a tough thing for me to follow. I always have the intent not to buy them when we leave for the store. But, if my husband doesn't want it, my kids will. Every now and then I have been successful - but then we just end up eating out a bunch that week.
- Don't go down the bad food isles. I've tried this one a few times too. But, either the bad stuff is on the end of the isles or my husband leaves and comes back with undesirables (in my healthy mind frame).
- Make a list and check it twice. I am terrible at making grocery lists and sticking to it.

I will be sharing check ins along the way and hopefully more helpful tips for you readers. If you are in or have any tips of your own, comment below.

And here is me trashing what I knew my kids wouldn't eat, because I knew as long as it was in the house I would.

Friday, October 24, 2014

I've Fallen Off the Wagon and I Can't Get Up

Wow long title, haha! I just thought it and went with it. :)

OK, so I was really doing awesome for about a month with awesome workouts. Still poor eating on and off though. I don't know if I will ever not struggle with food. I do hope one day I don't have to have this extreme love hate with food. And the last few weeks I have just went on this downward spiral that I can't seem to come back from all because I'm really letting food control me - especially mentally. After a week of struggling mentally and hating my workouts because I knew I still wouldn't be losing weight, I decided to take a break and try to regroup. I wanted to attempt to focus on my food and get my eating under control. Well, here I am two weeks later still no workouts and actually worse off with my food then I was before I decided to take the break. It was also only supposed to be 4-5 days and turn into 18 days. That is horrible!!!! I can't believe I let myself do this. I mean I am stuck in my weighs right? ;[ Ugh - rolling my eyes at myself for that joke.

But, I'm putting this out there. I want my readers to know. It's not all sunshine and roses over here. And hoping this can keep me accountable and get me back on "the wagon." I have come up with a few ideas to get myself back in the swing of things.

My Tips for Getting Back on the Wagon

1. Inspiration Board

I love Pinterest but it always helps to know I'm not the only one who can get lost on there for an hour or more. Other than Pinterest, I am also creating a paper version with basically anything I think of that inspires me. I can add as I think of them.

2. Goals/ Plan

I have already done my goals way back at the start of this cute little blog of mine. But, it is always helpful to reassess goals.
          - Take note, where are you on your previous goals
          - Set new long term goals
          - Set short term goals and deadlines
Setting short term goals with deadlines can be really helpful to have something to work for and get it done in a certain time. Planning is something I really need to work on the most.
          - Menu planning
          - Workout planning
          - Schedule some daily me time
I can plan workouts all day long. But, menu planning is something I need to get at! My food as mentioned above is definitely my most problematic area of my health. So I am going to work hard on starting to menu plan each week.

3. Post Some Notes

I am so big on this, but I have fallen out of touch with it because before the extended break I was doing so well without it. It is so helpful to have notes around to have reminders throughout your day.
          - Use a cork board
          - Use a dry erase board
          - Post it notes - or paper and tap :)
          - Magnets on the fridge
Put them anywhere and everywhere that will be most beneficial for you. If you are a stay at home mom like me, maybe the fridge or the snack cabinet.

4. Log It!

          - Keep a calendar
          - Keep a notebook
          - Selfie or it didn't happen
          - Your feelings
          - Use an app (MyFitnessPal)
I was keeping a calendar for food and workouts. So, that has definitely been helpful for getting back on the wagon. A little more than two weeks of emptiness is definitely put a fire under my pants. Posting this somewhere where I will see it (number 3) will hopefully help me to not fall off again. Sweaty selfies have been something I have been doing for a little while now. But, I have been considering doing photo logs of my food as well. I also use to use MyFitnessPal like crazy and now I feel struggled to do multiple days consistently. So that is also part of my short term goals.

5. Accountability

Find ways to keep accountable! There are so many social ways to keep accountable.
          - Find a friend in fitness
          - Join a group - running group, fitness class, etc
          - Put it out there for the world to see

Actually writing this blog helped me a lot and I ended up stopping mid way through and getting an arm/ cardio workout in. Be on the lookout for more posts coming soon on menu planning!

<3 Brooke

Friday, October 17, 2014

Things Moms With Multiples Are Tired Of Hearing

Every single time we go anywhere with the twins, nearly every person things they need to come up and talk to us. And it's almost always the same things...

1. Oh my gosh, are they twins?!

.... Really, I have two babies that look the same age/ size and exactly alike. Yeah I think I remember having them at the same time.

2. Are they identical?

No, they are fraternal. But, what difference does it make.

3. Oh, they look identical.

Well, as mentioned previously, they are twins. Twins usually look a lot alike. Trust me from question 2 and 3 I have considered just saying yes.

4. Double Trouble.

It's just annoying! Like I didn't know I'll have two babies going through teething and terrible twos at the same time. Or having two girls becoming teenagers at the same time and going through those moody years. Trust me I have thought about it, but thanks for the reminder.

5. Boy, you've got your hands full.

Really, you think? I never realized trying to take my 6 year old, 3 year old, and twin 1 year olds to the store by myself to grab diapers and milk. Hmm, thanks for letting me know.

6. I know twins. I knew twins. My cousin has twins.

I really don't care that you went to school back in the 70's with twins. I don't care that your neighbor has twins. I don't care that your second cousin twice removed just had twins. I don't know them, I'm absolutely certain that I will never know them - but thanks I'm just so happy to know that (shaking my head no, as in no I am not happy to know that).

7. You're blessed.

Not that I don't think I am, but really total stranger thanks for letting me know what I already know.

8. Can I have them.

WHAT THE F***!? OK this goes for anyone with a new baby, even just one. It's freakin creepy old ladies (and even some younger middle aged ladies as well). We hadn't had it happen in a little while but just this past weekend we were at Wal-mart in the toy isle and these two older ladies are shopping together and says "Oh twins! You can put her in here (gesturing to her empty cart), I've got room." My husband jokingly says back "She's nothing but trouble you'd bring her back." And she replies, "No I wouldn't." I'm serious just so darn creepy. I had to immediately have us leave the area.

Moms with multiples, feel free to share any below you have experienced :)

Friday, August 8, 2014

Beginner Fitness Tips

I have been on this journey for a little while now and I wanted to share with you some beginner tips.

1. Don't wait for Monday, a new month or the New Year.

Start today. 4 o'clock on a Thursday doesn't mean it's too late to make a good dinner choice or go for a walk around the block.

2. Do what you can, when you can.

A great blogger (Roni) I follow started posting about this a little while ago. And it is what it is. If you can get a 10 minute walk, jog, run, or any other type of physical activity - do it. It doesn't have to be this big production that lasts for an hour or nothing at all.

3. Do what makes you happy.

If you hate the workouts you are doing the processes is going to seem miserable. You will also find you have no motivation to do your workouts. I've done this before. I felt it was what I needed to do or I joined some challenge and failed miserably because I hated it.

4. Utilize the web for workouts.

This is not just for fitspiration and good health and fitness bloggers... Hi ;) But seriously,you don't need a fancy gym membership or a fancy at-home gym to get in shape. You don't even need weights. Utilize YouTube, Pinterest, or any other site to find at-home workouts.  Don't just create a Pinterest board of workouts and never use them! PS I'm guilty of this too (until recently). Start a notebook or binder and start writing out these workouts you pin or share on your Facebook wall. And DO them. Also if you think you won't remember moves draw little characters - that's what I do. And they look hideous but I'll get the point during my workout and that's all that matters.

5. Start working on your eating.

I went quite awhile in my fitness journey thinking what I eat doesn't matter. I felt I was working out so I deserved to eat the things I liked in whatever amount I liked. And this is still a real struggle for me. It seems like it is a constant push and pull for me mentally in regards to food. So know that this may take work but it will get easier - most days.

6. Don't "sweat" the small stuff.

You indulged in a piece of cake? So that doesn't mean the whole day is shot so eat whatever you want the rest of the day. That just means you make all the better choices the rest of the day. You get in bed and realize you didn't get your workout in, don't beat yourself up. Make a plan for tomorrow and get it in. Even a second day not getting your workout in doesn't mean your whole week is shot so you'll start again Monday. Every day is a new day and a chance to start fresh.

7. Be ready for anything that may come your way during this journey.

Like when you nearly pee your pants during a run or workout because of all that water you've been drinking. Or when you stink from a workout... And you like it. Or when you start getting checked out or called pretty lady (even if it is by an old man ;) ). Or when your clothes start getting looser on you and people start to notice.

8. Don't compare your journey to someone else's.

I know it is so hard not to compare to others. A good piece of Fitspiration: "You can't compare your beginning to someone else's middle." - Jon Acuff. Someone else's journey is just that - theirs. You never know their circumstances, their bodies (metabolism), their mindset, their game plan, their point in their journey. So you can't expect to be in the same place.

9. Don't quit. 

I had times attempting to resist foods (mainly desserts), that I was like 'This is so stupid and I want to quit.' But I stuck it out (OK most of the time I don't eat it) and the next day I feel better for it. And it's really easy to get frustrated with the process on weigh in day. When I have felt I had done awesome all week but I lost .6 (that's happened to me by the way). And I instantly feel like hulking out, stomping the scale, picking it up, trying to break it over my knee, and chucking it out of the bathroomRome wasn't built in a day and all. I still struggle with this. Another good piece of Fitspiration: "It's a marathon not a sprint." There are all these contributing factors to losing weight, and from week to week those factors may be different. So don't give up because you still have such a long way to go or you're not getting their fast enough.

10. Remember to enjoy the journey.

Through all the ups and down you will have, it will all be worth it. You will gain so much more than you lose (weight). You'll have a healthy mind, body and soul. You'll be able to do more things and have more energy to do them - especially if you don't just feed your body, you fuel your body.

Thanks for reading. Feel free to comment below with your beginner tips or links to your beginner posts.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

No More Body Shaming

I apologize in advance, this is about to get ranty and possibly b*tchy.

I am so sick and tired of body shaming - from any size person!!!! I have seen all these stupid "real woman" comments around before an it really got under my skin. And after seeing, for the second time this week, a Facebook friend sharing a somecard stating "no I'm not a size zero because I have the body of a woman not a 12 year old" - I can't hold it in anymore!!! That is so f*cking stupid!!!

I am no where damn near a size zero but I don't see a WOMAN that is a size zero (or close to it) and think oh she's not a woman..... It's like wtf.

I'm a size 18. But that's my damn business just as a WOMAN that is a size 8,4,0.

Oh and not to mention that if there was a somecard that was going around on Facebook that read "No I'm not a size 18 (20 or 22) because I have the body of a woman not a hippopotamus." Bigger gals every where would be raising HELL!!!!

All you women who like to throw around the term "real woman" remember this when you are gudging!! : That woman with a small figure may work very hard to have the body she does because it makes her feel good and makes her feel good about herself!

If you are a bigger gal you have probably at one point in your life (possibly as a child or even as an adult) experienced fat shaming! You have probably at one point in your life (not saying all the time) thought you were fat and/or wished you had a smaller body. You may have at one time envied a friend or fellow classmate for their smaller body. You may have at one time wondered why someone smaller than you that doesn't workout gets to eat whatever they want, and still stay small - and you look at a pizza with longing eyes and gain 5 pounds.
I have experienced all of the above. In elementary school, a couple times I was called tubby by other kids. In high school there was a couple girls that didn't like me and called me fat (even though I was in a healthy weight range for my height).

So if you have experienced those things and still have the audacity to throw around the term "real woman".... That's ridiculous. It hurts people. When I was in my healthy weight range during high school I thought I was fat, and I wasn't. I hated my body. So I think it's safe to say that even a size zero has those days. So they don't need you making them feel bad about themselves.

Let's try lifting others up instead of smacking them down just because they don't have your body.